Samantha:The student

I'm currently folding and creating 500 triangles for the base of my origami swan that I am creating for art (that I'm praying Mr. Berrodin will actually like) whilst dreaming of the upcoming Spring Break. It's during times like these that I think, Samantha, quick looking so far ahead. It'll be here quickly and then you'll regret having just ignored all the time that came before it. It's true! Everyone is prattling on about college and senior year, and leaving Aurora High School in the dust. But I don't want that to come so quickly! I'm not ready to completely grow up just yet. Sure, I enjoy independence; it's who I am. I am an independent woman (yes, woman) who will enjoy the freedoms yet to come along with the experience of college and such. But I don't want to just look to the future because I know I'll regret it when I'm older and looking back at those years of high school. That junior year where all I wanted was to be a senior and to have my college already picked out and waiting eagerly for me. No, that's certainly not what I want. Instead I enjoy living here, in the now. I want to drag on high school because I know my future is not going anywhere, but my present and my past, those are going far too quickly by me. It's practically the end of junior year, but I feel as though I just finished Christmas Break! It's absolutely terrifying to think how close senior year is, and I'm normally not afraid of anything! I listen to the seniors and to the kids who are now in college. They say Don't do it. Don't look ahead and focus on college or your career so much. Just live for today, because trust me, college will come faster than you think. And then you'll find yourself thinking about your friends and high school and missing them terribly. And so, I listen.

I'm not bashing college, honest! I can hardly wait for all the independence and choices. To get rid of those classes I can't stand (eh...math...) and start studying things that I want to study. It's just that I want to focus on it more when it comes a bit closer. For now, I'm just going to live my life as Samantha: The junior in high school. Instead of Samantha: The soon-to-be college student.